A Spec of College

It's hard to believe that 

I thought I loved you

Bringing myself to remember that

is like a nightmare of darkened memories

Tinted with a bad trip on LSD

You were someone that 

gaslit me into fragments of distrust

and fear and never owned up to it until

the damage was done

A petty kiss on the cheek to seal the deal

of rejection and pity

A slap to the face would have been equivalent 

~Tina Meeks

One Last Time

You, the persister

The energetic elixir

Perpendicular 

While I persisted on being plastic,

I tried to stretch every morning

knowing I'd never be elastic

That part isn't even tragic

It's how you learned to leech

on and stain me

with tainted childhood dreams,

where your voice was lost in your box

and now you roar when there is no need,

so all the seams are ripped

that used to separate

your nightmares

from your dreams 



~Tina Meeks

All The Feelings

And I'm not insensitive

I just think I have too many tears

to justify and to go around

to make sense of all of these feelings

~Tina Meeks