Shyne Bright

We are able to look past our 

own mistakes and wrong doings

to see each others glow

You got me glowing

I wanna leave room for your dim light to beam,

especially when it's shy

~Tina Meeks

The Night I Sat at Whole Foods

The night was cold

Cold enough to see breath

Dark enough to feel alone

To think the whole world is at rest

~Tina Meeks

It's Official...

Just wanted to share with everyone (anyone reading my blog) that it is finally official. I have published a book. I could not be happier that I have finally followed through with this. It's REAL.

Check it out if you get a chance: 

http://www.blurb.com/b/9212518-adolescence

Support me! Read poetry! And stayed tuned for my next, because there will be more!

Thanks so much for anyone that's followed me in this journey.

~Tina Meeks

Christmas

I feel like Christmas

I am sick to my stomach and so furious

~Tina Meeks

I'm The Worst

This will follow me forever

It will never be erased

Because I am at my best

when I have seen the worst of my days

~Tina Meeks

Haiku

Influenced by this

Dimly glowing atmosphere

This liquid courage

~Tina Meeks

Castro

I miss the rooftop climbs

As a kid, I collected rocks and they rocked

It's what kept me alive

I was a wimp

A shy girl wearing pants that didn't fit

In a small world like mine, that was as comfy as it gets

My brother and I used to wait for our ride after school

We walked across the pole and realized we weren't alone

As the lunch lady passed, the door never closed

It felt like a sign to enter or to let it go

An earthquake of nerves in a hollowed out

auditorium lunchroom

If we weren't alone, we'd be nothing but doomed

We emptied sugar packets in our hands

and there was nothing else to get into

We weren't thieves, just kids that liked sugar

It was a one time thing

Shoulda, coulda, woulda, we did

~Tina Meeks

Soul Sista

Hey soul sista

You've got my head rockin'

I'm searching for memories with you

Hoping for more to arise and we glide

on the wet pavement with socks on our hands

down the avenue

I've always wondered your deepest thoughts

and if they're the same stance as Bohemian Romance

I know where your modesty lies

I've never seen you cry

We claim and desire the same kind of independence 

and hide in the shadows but away from the trenches

We've got to reach higher

~Tina Meeks

Before You Left The Country

I'm trying too hard to be your friend

I'm sorry we can no longer be as we wished

Put your shirt back on

and lay on your side of the bed

We are to remain segregated as we sleep

Alone with cold feet and I like it

It's better than a cold shoulder

I'm sorry if this disappoints you

~Tina Meeks

Everyone's Got a Vice

You didn't love me,

you just like painting graffiti on my walls

for that rush, like a tattoo

But you don't have any

I guess you were just chasing that heroin high

~Tina Meeks

November 20th, 2015

I don't think I could ever love you

I have no idea if you are even lovable 

You're impossible

~Tina Meeks

Humpty Dumpty

Humpty Dumpty only sat on the wall

long enough to realize, falling down 

was the way

He didn't die

He only cracked, and now

I think I understand the yolk of it

~Tina Meeks

Dream From Last Night

I had a dream about you last night

and you pulled another fast one on me

At first, I was too shy to speak even a word

Watching you think you were invisible in a crowd

made me compare you to a snowflake

You're an ice woman

You outwardly show no remorse

in your eyes, unless your glasses

reflect distorted regret

I finally approached you

You almost actually seemed happy to see me,

as if coming out of a daze

And shortly after, you disappeared

like you always have

You know, you're a mystery to yourself

You will never know how delicate your

presence is, even though

it's evident you were once here

~Tina Meeks

Is This What Love Is?

Your hand was so vulnerable

Your hand was like the air is around me

My eyes, focused

My heart was racing

I was trying to not seem possessive

Marrying you was not what I wanted

I didn't want to go all the way with you

I just wanted this

~Tina Meeks

Old Friends

The sun and the moon

do not face one another

The glass and lit shadows

have nothing to do

Today is a day and tomorrow

is the story of her

The girl I never knew

~Tina Meeks

Lost in the Wild

I fell in love with the memories

of you lost in my heart

in a foreign language

Lost in a place I have yet to go

I have yet to adore

Trying to learn how to control my throat 

is anything but effortless

I'd rather be quiet but I don't wanna

be alone

If I wanted to be alone,

I'd have befriended Christopher McCandless

and think nothing of it

We'd climb mountains

We'd eat beans from a can

We would keep walking 

until we reach anything and silently 

think to ourselves

about the reflections of our lives

and how silly society is

with islands of consumption,

and that would be the extent

of our communication 

And this is where I'm truly lost,

because you've trailed off in my mind

And you are always smiling...

~Tina Meeks

March 12th, 2018

My thoughts blanket the sky over and over

and pours until I'm drenched

I want to tow away my mind so

I have one less thing to think about

My worst thoughts are stowed away in the trunk

It would be liberating to be able to 

execute my own thoughts again

When I wait at the bus stop,
my focus is stopped by you

The thing is, you speak to me

You serenade me through Spanish

folk tales and songs

The only identifiable thing to feel is entranced

These feelings, I can't quite break down

because when we are together, 

we both become something other,

coming to life

I find nothing wrong with that

~Tina Meeks 

The Hustle

Self conscious like a tree

blowing in the wind

Living a peculiar kind of struggle

and deprived from the hustle

Fun?
Fun??

Maybe once before
Before nerves set themselves free
Before gender was ever a concern, 

and maybe there was happiness

because that's all there is in your youth

~Tina Meeks

Face The Music

Hesitating the vulnerability

Pushing aside the fears

Restless nights never sounded so terrifying

until too many have survived

Lack of severity inhales any serenity

Exhale dust

Exhale dust, and I cough

Clear my throat and move on- it's nothing

Solitude forces the grasp on reality

and silence creates a space to hear anything 

that may have been missed before

But before, I thought it was music

Nah, now this is facing the music

like looking into a mirror

and at the first glimmer of something...

~Tina Meeks